Slaughtered Youth

I want to start at the beginning
And wash all the dirt goodbye
A new bar of soap 'Essence of innocence'
Untouched, un-bruised
Not yet tainted by misuse.
I roll it between my palms
It slips and slides
And tentatively I rub the lather down my leg
And between my thighs
The shower drums against my spine
Like a thousand stubby fingers kneading flesh
And I'm looking at the soft skin where a smile used to be
A gash that's red and raw and sneering
Two pillows that cushioned a dream
Barbed wire that now strangles my screams
My eyes burn the soap wont cleanse
My skin itches, my hands turn to blades
That scratch and pull and tear
Ripping out my anguish
My filthy body
And finger pawed hair
My body a shell that's no longer mine
Self abused and rejected
Innocence slaughtered
By a moment in time.